The Crazy Suburban Mom: Saying good-by to pounds... Kindly

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Friday, June 3, 2011

Saying good-by to pounds... Kindly



*This post is brought to you by the letter I for insight, which comes at the oddest times and from the oddest places*

 Would anyone look at two plates of food; one broccoli, one pralines à la mode and say, Slide those pralines this way because those puppies'll advance me in the direction of zipping my jeans without a crowbar?

Doubtful.

  I know the right answer but the pralines are winking at me, all flirty and come hither.  Believe me, I'm reaching for the  broccoli and then my mind starts wandering in other directions... (It's a special occasion.  This place makes them so good.  I'm on vacation.  I just weighed in.  I don't want to offend the person who made them.  I already spent the money.  I'll have to throw them out.) ...and I cave.  

 I've been on Nutrisystem for a month trying to figure out, What's up with the self-sabotage because really... It's a ten foot tall stack of queen size pantyhose worth  of counterintuitive.  If putting my pants on is an aerobic activity why is something that makes that worse so appealing to me.

I've been working with the Mindset Makeover and have a clue what it could be, youse'all.

 Youse'all:  the Jersey version of y'all.   

If you take deliciousness out of the equation and I know that might seem like an odd thing to take out but here's the thing : There are a lot of things that I feel like I can't resist when I eat them, like the pralines in the example, but they aren't even in the top 25 things I love.

 What I'm saying is, I act like OMGotta HAVE THAT!  but if I could have everything I love in one dinner; pralines wouldn't even be on the table.

I can also take away hunger because my reactions to food choices have very little to do with that.

Habit is what I was left with; I react the way I've always reacted.

Doing away with habits is tricky because you can't just be done with them, you have to replace them with another thing. Check.  Working on that.  It also takes time, at least a month of doing the new thing daily.  Longer if you're slow.  Check.  Much longer for me.  And you have to make peace with the whole habit to begin with.

Habits don't form in a void.  They serve a purpose; they are like friends.  In an odd way so are excess pounds.  And just because I'm done (Oh, so done) with the weight doesn't mean it's ready go yet.  It's kind of like having a party where you've invited a ton of people.  And it was grand soirée; a good time was had by all! One by one the guests left except this  one friend who doesn't notice the party's over even though you're sitting in your pajamas.

Finally you get up, walk your good friend to the door, " I love you." You say, "I know I can count on you." And send him off with a hug for always being there.  Albeit a little to long this time.

I thought it was a good idea to really absorb that whole thing because for me, that's all very true. Weight and food have been good to me in a lot of ways.  For all the bad,  they are comfort to me and without acknowledging that I can't move on.  And while I say I'm trying to get rid of them, I've done everything possible to keep them right here with me.  No wonder they never leave.  No wonder I can't let them go.

It's time for them to go now, but gently.  Kindly.  So this week I'd like to walk  Meredith (the pound I lost this week) to the door and tell her, Thank you for coming to my party   It wouldn't have been the same with out you!  

From now on l will send the pounds away like old friends...

But go they will.


5 Comments:

babesrockinmami 6/3/11, 2:11 PM  

bye bye Meredith!

Lindalou 6/3/11, 10:12 PM  

Keep it going. That's all you can do...one pound at a time. I've also learned that when you loose one...it might come back, but then it goes again and sometimes takes another friend with it. It's kind of like one step forward and two baby steps back. But it does keep going.

Rooted for you.

Zeta Thompson 6/5/11, 6:27 AM  

one is better than gaining one!. Keep it up actually 1 is great if you are starting to plateau. Thanks for the positive thoughts and keep us posted on how you are doing!

Misguided Mommy 6/7/11, 11:30 PM  

if you can figure out how to stop self sabotaging please tell me because i'm on a mission to be valedictorian of sabotage. i can't stop. i want to but i cant i am not even trying...it's like i'm trying to just fuck up as much as possible

Come comment on my argument blog I need a good laugh
http://www.misguidedmommy.com/blog/527/What-is-your-best-

The Budget Diet 6/9/11, 6:59 PM  

I'm still waiting for a magic diet pill!

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